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Monday, November 29, 2010
mentally tired to the max.
i cant explain how much i hate speaking on the phone with strangers :(
super scared stiff ok and i was so nervous that my hands turned COLD.
and gena suan-ed badly cus of that, said i cant make it if merely arranging for interviews with candidates i already so nervous :(
there are so many things to learn, guess i've been sheltered for too long, its time to grow up.
me needs MUSIC super badly. cant wait for work to end so i can drown myself with the songs
fridays, u will be here soon right?! i miss u so bad!!! >.<
i cant explain how much i hate speaking on the phone with strangers :(
super scared stiff ok and i was so nervous that my hands turned COLD.
and gena suan-ed badly cus of that, said i cant make it if merely arranging for interviews with candidates i already so nervous :(
there are so many things to learn, guess i've been sheltered for too long, its time to grow up.
me needs MUSIC super badly. cant wait for work to end so i can drown myself with the songs
fridays, u will be here soon right?! i miss u so bad!!! >.<
Thursday, November 25, 2010
我也累了。。。
昨天我终于恍然大悟， 发现“累”这个字其实只不过是一个借口。
我以前真的是好傻， 好天真。
每次当我听到他对我说他好累，不想和我聊天， 我只能很无奈地接受，埋怨为什么他的功课那么多，永远有做不完的事情。当很多人告诉我那只是一种借口， 我一直都不相信，每次都安慰我自己说那是因为他们都不了解他。
但是，我昨天终于明白了。“累”只是用来安抚对方。 因为事实就是， 你根本都不想和他聊天，而最好的理由便是：“我累了”。
如果对方不能接受， 那只会显示他不够体贴，所以每个人听到别人说累了，都会让他去休息。“累”这个字真的是个“好”借口！
yes, indeed things have turned to the bad side so quickly. i wouldnt deny, i feel sad about it. afew days ago, i cried like mad again just hours before my exam paper. i cried about how we have changed, how you and i have changed. its sad and scary how i cant picture you and i together anymore.. as much as i didnt want to, but undeniably, things between us have really changed. with or without him around, we would still realise it, it was just a matter of whether we realise it sooner or later.
feelings in humans are so bloody scary, they come and they go as and when they like. and when its gone, its almost impossible to chase it back and all u can do is to let go and watch it slip away from your hands.. are humans meant to live in solitude?
sometimes i really feel i'm not courageous to step in.. the whole thing is like a vicious cycle. first you become friends, then you fall in love, you give the whole of your heart to him, time passes, things changed, he returns you the heart that you gave but that heart is already broken and torn. you feel like your heart is ripped open everyday without his presence. and the most important thing, you lose your friend and someone who was once so dear and close to you.
谢谢你的美好。。。。
昨天我终于恍然大悟， 发现“累”这个字其实只不过是一个借口。
我以前真的是好傻， 好天真。
每次当我听到他对我说他好累，不想和我聊天， 我只能很无奈地接受，埋怨为什么他的功课那么多，永远有做不完的事情。当很多人告诉我那只是一种借口， 我一直都不相信，每次都安慰我自己说那是因为他们都不了解他。
但是，我昨天终于明白了。“累”只是用来安抚对方。 因为事实就是， 你根本都不想和他聊天，而最好的理由便是：“我累了”。
如果对方不能接受， 那只会显示他不够体贴，所以每个人听到别人说累了，都会让他去休息。“累”这个字真的是个“好”借口！
yes, indeed things have turned to the bad side so quickly. i wouldnt deny, i feel sad about it. afew days ago, i cried like mad again just hours before my exam paper. i cried about how we have changed, how you and i have changed. its sad and scary how i cant picture you and i together anymore.. as much as i didnt want to, but undeniably, things between us have really changed. with or without him around, we would still realise it, it was just a matter of whether we realise it sooner or later.
feelings in humans are so bloody scary, they come and they go as and when they like. and when its gone, its almost impossible to chase it back and all u can do is to let go and watch it slip away from your hands.. are humans meant to live in solitude?
sometimes i really feel i'm not courageous to step in.. the whole thing is like a vicious cycle. first you become friends, then you fall in love, you give the whole of your heart to him, time passes, things changed, he returns you the heart that you gave but that heart is already broken and torn. you feel like your heart is ripped open everyday without his presence. and the most important thing, you lose your friend and someone who was once so dear and close to you.
谢谢你的美好。。。。
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
today's a tiring good day.. :)
studied till 3am last night all cus i slacked too much in the day.
my meaning of slacked too much? going to the salon to dye my hair from 11am-2plus pm when i could have used the time to study
super slacker right?! >.<
but anyways, firstly i kissed goodbye to black roots!! how i wish my hair can grow out to be golden brown instead of black
:(
back to my topic, i managed to scrape through studying and the exam was alright..
hopefully can pass bah! :D
and today i got a good phonecall and so after 2 months of balonglong, i'm going back to work loh!! :D
starting work tmr!!
studied till 3am last night all cus i slacked too much in the day.
my meaning of slacked too much? going to the salon to dye my hair from 11am-2plus pm when i could have used the time to study
super slacker right?! >.<
but anyways, firstly i kissed goodbye to black roots!! how i wish my hair can grow out to be golden brown instead of black
:(
back to my topic, i managed to scrape through studying and the exam was alright..
hopefully can pass bah! :D
and today i got a good phonecall and so after 2 months of balonglong, i'm going back to work loh!! :D
starting work tmr!!
Sunday, November 21, 2010
gosh.
Sad P E...
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Sad P E...
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Saturday, November 20, 2010
me wana MJ
ME wana MJ
ME WANA MJ.
i hope for good news on monday. i need the kaching kaching already lah!
and cant wait for my last paper on 26th! getting older, memory failing and studying sucks to the max
ME wana MJ
ME WANA MJ.
i hope for good news on monday. i need the kaching kaching already lah!
and cant wait for my last paper on 26th! getting older, memory failing and studying sucks to the max
Thursday, November 18, 2010
FUCK MY LIFE.
SOMEBODY PLEASE JUST TAKE A GUN AND SHOOT ME DEAD.
I CANT WAIT FOR WORLD END ON 2012.
i know i'm of no position to feel upset. i brought it upon myself. but i never wanted all of these to happen, i really dont. and i dont know why heaven has to play such a huge game with me. if letting me deal with a heartbreak previously wasnt enough, this had to happen. how much worse can it be? is this whole thing just a prank played on me?
somebody, please tell me this is all a bad dream and i will wake up from it
or put things simpler, somebody just kill me. perhaps then it'll benefit everybody. perhaps all along those who hate me are right, i'm really such a bitch.
exam starts on saturday. honestly, it'll be a miracle that i'm able to pass it. i dont even feel like goin for the exams or even studyin for it.
seriously, FML
SOMEBODY PLEASE JUST TAKE A GUN AND SHOOT ME DEAD.
I CANT WAIT FOR WORLD END ON 2012.
i know i'm of no position to feel upset. i brought it upon myself. but i never wanted all of these to happen, i really dont. and i dont know why heaven has to play such a huge game with me. if letting me deal with a heartbreak previously wasnt enough, this had to happen. how much worse can it be? is this whole thing just a prank played on me?
somebody, please tell me this is all a bad dream and i will wake up from it
or put things simpler, somebody just kill me. perhaps then it'll benefit everybody. perhaps all along those who hate me are right, i'm really such a bitch.
exam starts on saturday. honestly, it'll be a miracle that i'm able to pass it. i dont even feel like goin for the exams or even studyin for it.
seriously, FML
Sunday, November 14, 2010
in a confused state and not wanting to think about anything..
can i just like take one step at a time?
yeah, i agree i trust people, anyone, everyone too easily
cus i dont see the need why anyone would have to lie or have hidden motives for being friends..
perhaps when mama gave birth to us, 防人之心 element was not included in us. i dunno about the rest but it applies to me and san jie. just tt all along she has been really lucky, almost all she met were good.. yeah she's really lucky..
but me on the other hand, no such luck.. i find myself meeting wrong people, trusting wrong people and often finding myself either taken advantage of or that i end up regretting why i'd been so stupid as to believe in people so easily :(
do you all live in this world always in doubt of everyone and their intentions? living in this world is already complicated enough, doesnt all the doubts and suspicions you have for everyone, make it even more difficult and complicated? or is that really what you should do in this world so as to best protect yourself? what do you think? =/
can i just like take one step at a time?
yeah, i agree i trust people, anyone, everyone too easily
cus i dont see the need why anyone would have to lie or have hidden motives for being friends..
perhaps when mama gave birth to us, 防人之心 element was not included in us. i dunno about the rest but it applies to me and san jie. just tt all along she has been really lucky, almost all she met were good.. yeah she's really lucky..
but me on the other hand, no such luck.. i find myself meeting wrong people, trusting wrong people and often finding myself either taken advantage of or that i end up regretting why i'd been so stupid as to believe in people so easily :(
do you all live in this world always in doubt of everyone and their intentions? living in this world is already complicated enough, doesnt all the doubts and suspicions you have for everyone, make it even more difficult and complicated? or is that really what you should do in this world so as to best protect yourself? what do you think? =/
Thursday, November 11, 2010
what is happening to me???
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
我想要寻找什么样的感觉？
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
i'm supposed to start my revision since monday but i've been so lazy lah. i've yet to cover even 1 chapter of the stupid hrm module >.<
was thinking of investing my time on the study guide but at the same time the study guide looks very abstract and i very scared that i will buang depending only on the study guide but the damned textbook is too long-winded and so thick! :(
so let me update about my volunteer trip.. :P
when i reached the dog shelter, it was really quite shocking cus the dogs there are all HUGE. as in when they stand up, they'd be somewhere my height and that is not emphasising the fact that they are all really small dogs, maybe half the age of my ah b. and when i was brought into the first "cage", there were 6 dogs inside and all of them came and surrounded me. i was super freaked out cus 1 of them stood and pounced at me, i was abit thrown off balance and i got a kiss from that dog literally on my mouth. after that i was quite scared whenever any one came and checked me out cus i actually have phobia of big dogs after being chased by one when i was in primary school.
there wasnt much things to do, there were quite alot of volunteers there and they all knew what they could do. so the clueless me just sat there and pet the dogs until they asked me if i wanted to walk the dog. walking the dog was also a big difference from walking my ah b. firstly, their collar is like really super thick metal kind. and as i mentioned, they were big and i had to use 2 hands to control it. initially, the dog literally pulled me cus she was really excited and i was damned scared, imagine the dog who has more energy than you and is taking control of you! after that i got to know from another volunteer that the female dog that i was leading likes to run. -.-'''
i super hate running de. but for her sake, i ran and most part i was dragged by her. oh no, she didnt make me run. she literally made me sprint. it was difficult to stop her cus of her huge amount of energy and also cus the leash was at her collar. if i pulled, it'll kinda like strangle her and therefore i was reluctant to do it. needless to say, when i finally reached the pet shelter again, i was SWEATING like mad. even some of them there were laughing at me. -.-'''
but at the end of it, somehow i think the dogs there are somewhat happy? cus they are in quite good condition. they're all quite friendly.. i used to think my ah b very gentle whenever he takes food from our hands, i thought other dogs would bite it off your hands, but surprisingly the big dogs here, they all do the same as ah b.. and it feels weird peting a dog whose forehead is already bigger than the size of my palm. i saw cute/funny stuff like the dogs there really like to chase flies and i even saw a mother dog humping her own children. LOL
i guess i'll still go down there again but the journey is super long, the place is at pasir ris. and so, probably i'd not be such a frequent visitor. =xX
alritey, ending my post here... time to start to revise again!! >.<
was thinking of investing my time on the study guide but at the same time the study guide looks very abstract and i very scared that i will buang depending only on the study guide but the damned textbook is too long-winded and so thick! :(
so let me update about my volunteer trip.. :P
when i reached the dog shelter, it was really quite shocking cus the dogs there are all HUGE. as in when they stand up, they'd be somewhere my height and that is not emphasising the fact that they are all really small dogs, maybe half the age of my ah b. and when i was brought into the first "cage", there were 6 dogs inside and all of them came and surrounded me. i was super freaked out cus 1 of them stood and pounced at me, i was abit thrown off balance and i got a kiss from that dog literally on my mouth. after that i was quite scared whenever any one came and checked me out cus i actually have phobia of big dogs after being chased by one when i was in primary school.
there wasnt much things to do, there were quite alot of volunteers there and they all knew what they could do. so the clueless me just sat there and pet the dogs until they asked me if i wanted to walk the dog. walking the dog was also a big difference from walking my ah b. firstly, their collar is like really super thick metal kind. and as i mentioned, they were big and i had to use 2 hands to control it. initially, the dog literally pulled me cus she was really excited and i was damned scared, imagine the dog who has more energy than you and is taking control of you! after that i got to know from another volunteer that the female dog that i was leading likes to run. -.-'''
i super hate running de. but for her sake, i ran and most part i was dragged by her. oh no, she didnt make me run. she literally made me sprint. it was difficult to stop her cus of her huge amount of energy and also cus the leash was at her collar. if i pulled, it'll kinda like strangle her and therefore i was reluctant to do it. needless to say, when i finally reached the pet shelter again, i was SWEATING like mad. even some of them there were laughing at me. -.-'''
but at the end of it, somehow i think the dogs there are somewhat happy? cus they are in quite good condition. they're all quite friendly.. i used to think my ah b very gentle whenever he takes food from our hands, i thought other dogs would bite it off your hands, but surprisingly the big dogs here, they all do the same as ah b.. and it feels weird peting a dog whose forehead is already bigger than the size of my palm. i saw cute/funny stuff like the dogs there really like to chase flies and i even saw a mother dog humping her own children. LOL
i guess i'll still go down there again but the journey is super long, the place is at pasir ris. and so, probably i'd not be such a frequent visitor. =xX
alritey, ending my post here... time to start to revise again!! >.<